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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

APPENDIX. 

 

HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT. 

 

HISTORY I.--The following narrative has been written by a 

university man trained in psychology:-- 

 

So far as I have been able to learn, none of my ancestors for at 

least three generations have suffered from any nervous or mental 

disease; and of those more remote I can learn nothing at all. It 

appears probable, then, that any peculiarities of my own sexual 

development must be explained by reference to the somewhat 

peculiar environment. 

 

I was the first child and was, naturally, somewhat spoiled--a 

process which tended to increase my natural tendency to 

sentimentality. On the other hand, I was shy and undemonstrative 

with all except my nearest relatives, and with them as well after 

my seventh or eighth year. And here it may be well to describe my 

"mental type," as this is probably the most important factor in 

determining the direction of one's mental development. Of mental 

types the "visual" is, of course, by far the most common, but in 

my own case visual imagery was never strong or vivid, and has 

constantly grown weaker. The dominant part has been played by 

tactual, muscular and organic sensations, placing me as one of 

the "tactual motor" type, with strong "verbal motor" and 

"organic" tendencies. In reading a novel I seldom have a mental 

picture of the character or situation, but easily imagine the 

sensations (except the visual) and feel something of the emotions 

described. When telling of any event I have a strong impulse to 

make the movements described and to gesticulate. I remember 

events in terms of movements and the words to be used in giving 

an account of them; and in thinking of any subject I can feel the 

movements of the larynx and, in a less degree, of the lips and 

tongue that would be involved in putting my thoughts into words. 

I am easily moved to emotion, even to sentimentality, but am 

seldom if ever deeply affected and am so averse to any display of 

my feelings that I have the reputation among my acquaintances of 

being cold, unfeeling and unemotional. I am naturally quiet and 

bashful to a degree, which has rendered all forms of social 

intercourse painful through much of my life, and this in spite of 

a real longing to associate with people on terms of intimacy. As 

a child I was sensitive and solitary; later I became morbid as 

well. In a character so constituted the feelings and impulses of 

the moment are likely to rule, and such has been my constant 

experience, though a large element of obstinacy in my character 

has kept me from appearing impulsive, and slight influences will 

bring about reactions which seem out of all proportion to their 

cause. For instance, I cannot, even now, read the more erotic of 

Boccaccio's stories without a good deal of sexual excitement and 

restlessness, which can be relieved only by vigorous exercise or 

masturbation. 

 

The first ten years of my life were passed on a farm, most of the 

time without playmates or companions of my own age. 

 

As far back as I can remember I indulged in elaborate day-dreams 

in which I figured as the chief character along with a few others 


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