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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

movements. She generally ended the seance by persuading me to 

perform cunnilingus upon her. None of these performances were 

intelligible to me and I invariably protested against being 

compelled to leave my play to amuse her. Even her fondling of my 

genitals annoyed me; and, stranger still, I preferred satisfying 

her by cunnilingus to the attempts at coitus. 

 

It was nearly a year later that I experienced the first 

unmistakable manifestations of the sexual impulse--erections 

accompanied by lustful feeling and vague desires of whose proper 

satisfaction I had no notion whatever. It never occurred to me to 

associate my experiences with the servant girl with these new 

sensations. The peculiar fact about them was that they were 

generally occasioned by the infliction of pain upon animals. I do 

not remember how I first discovered that they could be evoked in 

this way, but I can clearly recollect many of my efforts to 

arouse this pleasurable excitement by abusing the dog or the 

cats, or by prodding the calves with a nail set in the end of a 

broom handle. I seldom manipulated my genitals at this time, and 

when I did it was for the purpose of causing sexual excitement 

rather than allaying it. 

 

During this same year I got my first idea of sexual intercourse 

by watching animals copulate; but my powers of observation must 

have been limited, for I supposed that the penis of the male 

entered the anus of the female. In watching the coitus of animals 

I experienced lively sexual excitement and lustful sensations, 

located not only in the genitals, but apparently in the anus as 

well. I often excited, myself by imagining myself playing the 

part of the female animal--a peculiar combination of passive 

pederasty and bestiality. A servant girl put me to right on the 

error of observation just mentioned, but neglected to apply the 

principle to human animals, and I remained for another year in 

complete ignorance of the structure of woman's sexual organs and 

of the intercourse between man and woman. In the meantime I 

cultivated my fancies of intercourse with animals, often still 

perversely imagining myself taking the part of the female; and 

the notion of such relationships gradually became so familiar as 

to seem possible and desirable. This is especially significant in 

view of later developments. 

 

Up to my eleventh or twelfth year the erotic element in my 

daydreaming varied with the seasons. In the summer it played a 

dominant part, while in the winter it was almost entirely absent, 

owing, it may be, to the fact that most of my time was spent 

indoors or on long, tiresome tramps to and from school, and the 

further fact that during the winter I saw but little of the 

animals which had acted as a stimulus to sexual excitement. So 

little was I troubled in winter and so ignorant was I of normal 

intercourse that sleeping with a cousin, a girl of about my own 

age (7 or 8 years), resulted in no addition to my knowledge of 

things sexual. 

 

It was early in my ninth year that I first learned something of 

the anatomical difference between man and woman and of the 


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