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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

fears had been exaggerated. Nevertheless I was never reconciled 

to the habit and often rebelled at the weakness that kept me its 

slave. 

 

When I entered the university the effects of my useless struggle 

with the practice of masturbation were pretty well developed. I 

could no longer fix my attention steadily upon my work and found 

that only by "cribbing" and "bluffing" could I keep my place at 

the head of my classes. I was troubled not a little by the 

shoddiness of my work, and tried again and again during the 

course of the two years spent at this college to shake off the 

habit. At the university I was introduced gradually to a wider 

social circle and so far outgrew my bashfulness that I began to 

seek the society of the opposite sex assiduously. As I gained 

self-confidence I became reckless, getting at one time into 

serious trouble with the authorities which came near resulting in 

my expulsion. I became one of the more popular members of the 

clique to which I belonged--much to my surprise and even more to 

that of my acquaintances. The physical culture craze attacked me 

at this time and my pet ambition was the attainment of strength 

and agility. My bump of vanity also grew apace, but an unmeasured 

hatred of all kinds of foppishness kept me on the safe side of 

moderation in my dress and behavior. 

 

During my second year of university life I had two love affairs 

in the course of which I found that my interest in any particular 

member of the fair sex disappeared as soon as it was returned. 

The pursuit was fascinating enough, but I cared nothing at all 

for the prize when once it was within reach. I may add that the 

interest I had in the girls was purely ideal. While at this 

school I do not think I masturbated half as often as while at the 

preparatory school. 

 

When I left this college for ---- University I took with me a 

formidable catalogue of good resolutions, first among which was 

the determination to abandon all kinds of "self-abuse." I think I 

kept this one about a month. As I had gone from a comparatively 

small school to one of the largest of American universities the 

change was great and the revelations it brought me frequently 

humiliating. I was lonesome, home-sick, and my bump of 

self-esteem was woefully bruised; and not unnaturally I soon 

began to seek a partial solace in day-dreams and masturbation. 

After I had become somewhat adapted to my new environment I 

indulged less frequently in either, and from that time to the 

present I have masturbated very irregularly, sometimes but little 

and again to excess. 

 

Not long after I came to this place I met a young lady with whom 

I soon became quite intimate. For over a year our friendship was 

strictly platonic and then swung suddenly around to a sexual 

basis. We were ardent lovers for a few weeks, after which I tired 

of the game as I had before in other cases, and broke off all 

relations with her as abruptly as was possible. Since then I have 

almost wholly withdrawn from the society and companionship of 


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