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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

women and have almost entirely lost whatever tact and assurance I 

once possessed in their company. Things pertaining to sexual life 

have interested me rather more than less, but have occupied my 

attention much less exclusively than before this episode. Though 

I have never intended to marry, my breaking off relations with 

this girl affected me much. At any rate it marked an abrupt 

change in the character of my sexual experiences. The sexual 

impulse seems to have lost its power to rouse me to action. 

Hitherto I had practiced masturbation always under protest, as it 

were--as the only available form of sexual satisfaction; while 

now I resigned myself to it as all that there was to hope for in 

that field. Of course I knew that a little effort or a little 

money would procure natural satisfaction of my sexual needs, but 

I also knew that I would never, under any ordinary circumstances, 

put forth the necessary effort, and fear of venereal disease has 

been more than enough to keep me away from houses of 

prostitution. 

 

Some months ago I refrained from masturbation for a period of 

about six weeks and watched carefully for any change in my health 

or spirits, but noticed none at all. The only impulse to 

masturbate was occasioned by fits of restlessness accompanied by 

erections and a mildly pleasurable feeling of fullness in the 

penis and scrotum. I think that over 75 per cent, of my acts of 

masturbation are provoked by these fits of restlessness and are 

unaccompanied by fancy images, erotic thoughts, lustful desires, 

or marked pleasure. At other times the act is occasioned by 

erotic thoughts and images, and is accompanied by a considerable 

degree of lustful pleasure which, however, is never so intense as 

in my earlier experiences and has steadily decreased from the 

first. Usually the orgasm is accompanied by a strong contraction 

of all the voluntary muscles, particularly the extensors, 

followed by a slight giddiness and slight feeling of exhaustion. 

If repeated several times in the course of a single day the acts 

are followed by dullness and lassitude; otherwise the feeling of 

exhaustion passes away quickly and a sense of relief and quiet 

takes its place. So natural or rather habitual has this resort 

to masturbation as a means of relief from nervousness and 

restlessness become that the act is almost instinctive in its 

unconsciousness. 

 

I am extremely sensitive to all kinds of sexual influences, and 

have an insatiable curiosity regarding everything that pertains 

to the sexual life of men or women. I am not, however, excited 

sexually by conversation about sexual facts and relationships, no 

matter what its nature, though in reading erotic literature my 

excitement is often intense. 

 

The tendency to day dream has never left me, but there are no 

longer any elaborate scenes or long-continued "stories," these 

having been replaced by vaguely imagined incidents which are 

usually broken off before they reach a satisfactory climax. They 

are always interrupted by the intrusion of other matters, usually 

of more practical interest; and the long-continued habit of 


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