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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

satisfying myself by masturbation has made erotic dreams rather 

tantalizing than pleasurable. I dream very seldom at night--at 

least I can scarcely ever remember any dreams upon waking--and 

practically never of sexual relations. I have not had a nocturnal 

emission for over three years, and probably not more than 

twenty-five in my life. 

 

In my "love passages" with girls there has been no serious 

thought of coitus on my part, and I have never had intercourse 

with a woman--unless my early experiences with the servant girl 

be called such. Like all masturbators I always idealized "love" 

to the utter exclusion of all sensual cravings; and the notion 

that the physical act of coitus was something degrading and 

destructive of real love rather than its consummation was, of all 

prejudices I have ever formed, the most difficult to escape--a 

circumstance due, I suppose, to the fact that all I had ever been 

taught on the subject tended to the complete divorce of what was 

called "love" from what was stigmatized as a "base sensual 

desire." Judging from my own experience and observation I should 

say that "ideal love" is a mere surface feeling, bound to 

disappear as soon as it has gained its object by arousing a 

reciprocal interest on the part of the one to whom it is 

directed. So little did I "materialize" the objects of my "love" 

that I have never cared for kissing or the warm embraces in which 

lovers usually indulge. I have never kissed but one girl, and her 

with far too little enthusiasm to satisfy her. My last sweetheart 

was a very passionate girl, the warmth of whose embraces was 

somewhat torrid and, to me, both puzzling and annoying. The 

intensity of feeling which demanded such strenuous expression was 

beyond my knowledge of human nature. A somewhat peculiar 

circumstance in connection with these experiences is the fact 

that I often found myself trying to analyze my emotions with a 

purely psychological interest while playing the part of the 

intoxicated lover in his mistress's arms. 

 

There is but little left to say on the subject of my sexual 

development. During the last two or three years my knowledge of 

the facts of the sexual life has been very greatly increased, 

and I have become acquainted with phases of human nature which 

were wholly unknown to me before. The part played by things 

sexual in my life is still, I suppose, abnormally large; it is 

undoubtedly the largest single interest, though my outer life is 

determined almost wholly by other considerations. 

 

Of course I know nothing of the effect which long-continued 

masturbation may have had on my ability to perform normal coitus. 

I do not think I am subject to any kind of sexual perversion, for 

all my indulgence has been _faute de mieux_ and, at least since I 

began masturbation, all my desires and erotic day-dreams have had 

to do only with normal coitus. The mystery which surrounds the 

sexual act seems at times to be regaining its former influence 

and power of fascination. I have no doubt, however, but that I 


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