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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

 

 

HISTORY II.--C.A., aged 25, unmarried; tutor, preparing to take 

Holy Orders:-- 

 

My paternal ancestry (which is largely Huguenot) is noteworthy 

for its patriotism and its large families. My father, who died 

when I was a year old, is remembered for the singular uprightness 

and purity of his life from his earliest childhood. The 

photograph which I have shows him as possessed of a rare classic 

beauty of features. He was an ideal husband and father. At the 

time of his death he was a Master of Arts and a school principal. 

My mother is an extraordinarily neurotic woman, yet famed among 

her friends for her great domesticity, attachment to her 

husbands, and an almost abnormal love of babies. She has nobly 

borne the ill-treatment of her second husband, who for several 

years has been in a state of melancholia. My mother has been 

"highly-wrought" all her life, and has suffered intensely from 

fears of all kinds. As a young girl she was somnambulistic, and 

once fell down a stairhead during sleep. In spite of her bodily 

sufferings with indigestion, eye-strain, and depression she 

retains her youthfulness. She has slight powers of reasoning. She 

has had times of unconsciousness and rigidity, I have never heard 

any mention of epilepsy. She has a horror of showing prudishness 

in regard to the healthful manifestations of sex life, and is 

always praising examples of what she terms "a natural woman." 

 

I have heard that during my first year my mother detected my 

nurse in the act of putting a morphine powder on my tongue for 

the purpose of keeping me quiet. I was subject to convulsions at 

this period, and narrowly escaped a permanent hernia. My family 

tell me that from the beginning I was a well-developed and boyish 

boy, full of mischief, impulsive, good to look upon, unusually 

affectionate, beloved by all. 

 

In my third year I took pleasure in crawling under the bed with 

my boy-cousin who was nine months my senior, and after we had 

taken down our drawers, in kissing each other's nates. I do not 

remember which of us first thought of this pastime. 

 

At the age of 4 I gave myself a treat by gazing upward through a 

cellar window at the nates of a woman who was defecating from 

several feet above into a cesspool that lay beneath. It was 

during this summer also that I frightened myself by pulling back 

my prepuce far enough to disclose the purple glans, which I had 

never seen before. But this act gave me no desire to masturbate. 

 

When 5 years old, and living in a great city, I drew indecent 

pictures in company with a little girl and her younger brother. 

These pictures represented men in the act of urinating. The 

penes were drawn large, and the streams of urine plainly 

indicated. One afternoon I induced the boy to go to the 

bath-room, lie on his back, and allow me to perform _fellatio_ on 

him. I did not ask him to return the favor. I remember the 

curious tar-like smell of his clothing and the region about his 

genitals. It is possible that I gained my knowledge of _fellatio_ 

from an unknown boy of 10, who had induced me, during the 


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