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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

subjection and abeyance by it. It was rather repulsive to think 

of girls as objects of lust. This state of mind was not brought 

about by any romantic attachment or through any acquaintance or 

through circumstances. I was living in great seclusion and had no 

girl friends. After this period the lower side of my nature woke 

up as a giant refreshed with wine, and I underwent for many years 

a constant struggle with my nature, in which religion always 

triumphed in the end. I never fell into fornication, though 

sometimes into the vice of masturbation. These outbursts of 

desire were periodic, about ten or fourteen days apart, and would 

last several days. I must record also the fact that from the time 

this awakening took place my ideal views of woman no longer 

seemed incompatible with sexual relations. I noticed that at 

about 27 there was a lessening of the desire, but that may have 

been due to overwork and consequent nervous exhaustion. I had a 

good deal of worry and studied daily for about eight hours. In 

any case the impulse was strongest during the years above 

mentioned. A little later in life, for a time, I became attached 

to a girl, and eventually engaged. I then observed, greatly to my 

sorrow and annoyance, that whenever I met this lady, or even 

thought of her, erections took place. This was particularly 

painful to me, as my thoughts were not of a lustful or impure 

character. Sometimes sitting by her at a religious service this 

would occur, when certainly my mind was far away from anything of 

the kind. That was the first woman ever kissed by me, except of 

course members of my immediate family circle. Later on my 

thoughts turned to marriage, and there was a great longing at 

times for this event to take place. However, as this attachment 

afterward became the great sorrow of my life for years, it needs 

no more comment. This closes one chapter of my history, and at 

present I do not propose to add another, as in a great measure it 

is only partly written. It may be well here to state that there 

has never been in me the slightest homosexual desire; in fact it 

has always appeared as a thing utterly inconceivable and 

disgustingly loathsome. I am fond of the society of both men and 

women, but on the whole prefer the latter. I have had several 

warm and intimate though platonic friendships, and get on 

exceedingly well with the other sex, although not a good-looking 

man. I have always been attracted to women by their spiritual or 

mental qualities, rather than by physical beauty, and feel 

strongly that the latter alone would never cause me to desire 

coitus. Unless there was an attraction other than that of the 

flesh, I should feel that I was following simply a brute 

instinct, and it would jar with my higher nature and cause 

revulsion. This was not the case in my earlier years to the same 

extent. I have often wondered whether the sexual impulse was 

strong in me or not, but if not, there is nothing in my physical 

state or family history to account for it. I am fairly cognizant 


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