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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

with the lives of my ancestors, being descended from two old 

families. The sexual instinct was certainly not weak or abnormal 

in them. Personally, I am tall and healthy, well built, but 

sensitive and highly strung. Smell has never played any part in 

my life as a stimulant of sexual desire, and the mere thought of 

body odors would have a very decided effect in the opposite 

direction. Touch and sight appeal to me strongly, and of the two 

the former most. 

 

I am convinced, after many years careful thought, that sexual 

vice and perversion could be greatly reduced if the young were 

instructed in the elements of physiology as they bear on this 

question. Personally, had I been thus enlightened much sin would 

have been avoided in my schoolboy days, and a perverted view of 

sexual matters would never have arisen in my mind. It took years 

to overcome the feeling that all such things were unclean and 

defiling. Eventually light came to me through reading a passage 

in a tractate on the Creed by Rufinus. He was defending the 

doctrine, of the Incarnation against the pagan objection that it 

was an unclean and disgusting idea that God should enter the 

world through the womb of the Blessed Virgin Mary, and he meets 

it by showing that God created the sexual organs, therefore the 

objection is invalid--otherwise God would not be clean or pure, 

having Himself designed them and their functions. This passage is 

slight in itself, but gave birth to a line of thought which has 

influenced me profoundly. I no longer regard sexual matters as 

disgusting and unholy, but as intensely sacred, being the outcome 

of the Divine Mind. Further, the Incarnation of the Saviour has 

not only sanctioned motherhood and all that is implied by it, but 

has eternally sanctified it as the means chosen for the 

manifestation of God to the world. I should not obtrude my 

theological conceptions, but for the fact that they have 

determined my life-history in that aspect. 

 

 

 

 

HISTORY IV.--When I was 9 years old a boy at the preparatory 

school, which I attended, showed me the act of masturbation, 

which he said he had practiced for a long time, and which he 

urged me to imitate, if I wished to become a father when I grew 

up, and married! Boy-like I believed him and tried, but the 

sensation obtained was not a pleasant one (I suppose that I was 

too rough with myself) and I desisted. 

 

When I was about 12 years old, a schoolfellow told me that he had 

seen his nurse copulating with the groom, and he and I used to 

haunt the woods in the hope that we might see an amorous couple 

so engaged, but without success. We often talked of the act, as 

to how it was done. Neither he nor I had any clear ideas on the 

subject, save as to the organs involved. I was about 15 when a 

maidservant of the house in which I was a boarder, came to my 

bedroom one night and taught me how to masturbate her. She said 

that this was a good thing for me to do, and warned me never to 

"play with myself" as it would kill me, or drive me mad. I told 

her that I had tried it, but could not bring on a pleasurable 


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