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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

feeling, so she did it to me, and although I did not have an 

emission, I derived great pleasure from the act. She told me that 

it never did a boy any harm to let a girl play with his parts, 

and promised that if I would keep the secret, she would often do 

this for me. Naturally I promised to say nothing, and she often 

came up to my room. Later on she used to insert my penis into her 

vulva, while she was rubbing it, at the same time giving me a 

pigeon kiss. This _modus operandi_ was much appreciated by me. 

One night, after we had been together thus, I dreamt of her and 

her maneuvers and had my first emission. I was very proud of 

this, as I considered that I had at last attained to man's 

estate, and told her of it. She never allowed me to insert my 

penis into her vulva after that, alleging that she did not want 

to have a baby. 

 

I was about 161/2 years old when I had my first real coitus, my 

partner in the act being a girl some two years older than I, who 

lived near us. I enjoyed the act very much, as she permitted, nay 

insisted on, emission _intra vaginam_, and told her that this was 

much nicer than my amours with the maidservant which of course I 

had confided to her. She laughed, and said: "Of course." We often 

copulated, as long as I was at home, and then I lost sight of 

her. Of all the women with whom I have had to do, save one, she 

had the most copious secretion of mucus, which in those days I 

believed was the woman's semen. Her thighs used to be wet with 

it. 

 

At the University I had regular relations with women of all 

sorts, rarely missing a week. Two of them were married women, one 

the wife of a solicitor, the other of a doctor. How proud I felt 

of my first intrigue with a married woman! I felt that I was 

really a man of the world now! 

 

But though my friends used to tell me all about their love 

affairs, and I longed to confide in them, I did not do so. This 

was because when I went up to the University, my uncle said that 

he would give me a word of advice and hoped that I would follow 

it--never to give away a woman, and never to refuse to respond to 

a woman's advances, whoever she were. To neglect this advice 

would, he said, be foolish, and to break the rules "damned 

ungentlemanly." I wish I had always followed advice proffered, as 

closely as I have followed this. One night, when I was somewhat 

disguised in liquor, as our grandfathers would have put it, I 

picked up a girl, who was a private prostitute, if the phrase be 

permissible. She declined copulation, and proposed other means of 

satisfaction. I insisted, being stubborn in my cups. Had I been 

sober I should have done as she suggested, for I have always made 

it a point to allow the woman to choose the method of 

gratification, and not to demand, or even suggest, anything 

myself. I like to please women, and I have always been curious as 

to their wants and desires, as revealed, without outside 

influence, by themselves. The result of my refusing all methods 

of gratification save the most ordinary was that the girl, who 


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