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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

more carefully the book on scientific diet. Who can say, I 

thought, what changes for the better may come to me if I live on 

a strictly scientific and natural diet? 

 

I fasted one whole day, and then had a breakfast of cherries, in 

the middle of the day a meal of fruit, and walking in the 

afternoon--a gray, rainy day--I felt so light, so different, and 

the gray sky looked so sweet and familiar, that I was reminded of 

the luminous visions of my boyhood. It was a distinct revelation. 

This Pan-like, almost Bacchic feeling, did not last, however, nor 

was I always able to maintain my new method of diet, though I 

tried to do so. I made the attempt, however, but I imagine I was 

more than usually run down. I would walk miles in the hope of 

feeling less restless. One holiday I walked down to Glenelg, 

having only had grapes for my dinner, and lying on the beach I 

looked through a strong binocular glass I had borrowed at the 

girls bathing. And the beauty of their faces in their frames of 

hair, of their arms, of their figures, seen through their wet 

clinging dresses, satisfied me and filled me with joy, gave me 

for a short time that peace and content--in harmony with the 

strong sunlight on the waves and the rhythmic surf on the 

shore--I was seeking. The summer evenings on the pier or along 

the beach had a peculiar savor; one felt the youth and beauty 

there even on dark nights, the air was fragrant with them, white 

dresses and summer hats disappearing down the beach or over the 

sand hills. It was easy--doubtless justifiable sometimes--to put 

a lewd construction on these disappearances; but I felt it need 

not have been so; that it was not necessary that youth and 

beauty, even the sexual act itself if led up to by love, should 

be a subject of giggling and sniggering. I always left the beach 

and its flitting summer dresses with a sigh. 

 

A., after writing once, ceased writing at all and once more her 

mother and I were left in a state of anxiety and suspense. At 

last I determined to go to Melbourne to look for her, the only 

clue I had being a remark in her letter that a certain actor was 

giving her an engagement. In Melbourne I could not find any 

traces of her for some days and what traces I did find of her 

were not calculated to allay my anxious fears. One hotel-keeper 

told me that some one of A's name had stayed there with another 

hussy (giving Miss T's stage name): "There were nice carryings on 

with the pair of them." I thought of Miss T's strange looks, but 

could not imagine what hold she had on A., for A. loved me, I 

knew. I seemed to be in an inextricable maze. I could settle to 

nothing and was thinking of applying to the police when I heard 

that the actor A. had mentioned had taken his company to the 

Gippsland lakes. I followed to Sale, found the actor and was told 

that A. was not there. "She slipped me at the last moment," he 

said, "and remained in Melbourne." I returned to my lodgings, 

with my anxiety and nervous restlessness increased tenfold. But 

suddenly my fear and restlessness left me like a cloud. I felt 


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