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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

sewing. On my telling her whom I was seeking she stopped sewing 

and looked at me quickly: "Oh, are you her husband? I know her. 

_I have seen them together_." She looked as if she were going to 

tell me something, but merely shook her old-fashioned head in a 

mournful, indescribable way, saying "Why don't you keep your wife 

with you?" I went to the door and presently saw Miss T. She tried 

to avoid me, I thought, and looked more vicious than ever, but 

after a minute's thought reluctantly told me where she and A. 

were staying. To hide my fears and suspicions I had assumed a 

careless demeanor, but I think I should have strangled her had 

she refused to tell me. I hastily went to the place indicated and 

going up the stairs (to the astonishment of the people) opened 

the door and found myself face to face with A.--but how changed! 

She had the hard, harlot, loveless look I detested. I felt for a 

few minutes that I did not love her, and she regarded me coldly 

too, but presently old habits reinstated themselves. She put out 

her hands, very pitiably, and then was sobbing in my arms. I 

could get nothing out of her but sobs, and to this day do not 

know where she spent all these weeks nor why she did not write. 

Miss T. came in after rehearsal, pale and hard-faced. I greeted 

her politely, but was watching her, trying to puzzle out why A. 

did not look as she usually did after long absence from coition. 

Miss T. took another room in the same house and was soon joined 

by another ballet girl, young and very pretty, who soon began to 

have fits. A. was always crying until Miss T. went away with her 

pretty friend. I knew nothing, could hardly be said to suspect 

anything definite, and yet I pitied that pretty girl whose eyes 

looked so helpless and appealing. 

 

I set to work again. But I continued to live on fruit and bread, 

and taking off my clothes I would stand up at the window in the 

sun. A lot of prostitutes, however, who lived at the back saw me 

and were scandalized or shocked or thought me mad. The landlady 

heard of it and spoke to A. So I had to desist from my glorious 

sun-baths. 

 

We slept on a single bed, and though I did my best to avoid 

coitus (I wanted to wait and think out some theory of it), A., 

who knew nothing of this, wanted to resume our old habits, and 

finally I surrendered. But my sufferings next day were intense, 

and I had the sense of having fallen from some high estate. My 

thoughts were divided between two theories: one that our misery 

was caused by our diet, more or less; the other that we had 

fallen into some error as regards coitus, and this was becoming 

almost a certainty with me. 

 

There is one incident I think worthy of note which happened 

before the "fall" just mentioned and when I was living on fruit 

and in splendid health. At a performance I saw a girl on the 

stage with handsome legs in tights, and once as she straightened 

her leg the knee-cap going into position gave me such a strange 

and keen joy--of that quality I call divine or musical--that I 


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