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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

those you dislike. There is a serious and sad side to your 

character; you are very thoughtful and contemplative when in 

these moods. But you are not pessimistic. You have superior 

abilities, for they are intuitively intellectual. There is a cold 

reticence which restrains generous impulses and which inclines to 

acquisitiveness; it will make you deliberate, inventive, adding 

self-esteem, some vanity.' 

 

"At an early age I was left much alone in the nursery and there 

contracted the habit of masturbation long before the age of 

puberty. I use the word 'masturbation' for want of a better, 

though it may not quite describe my case. I have never used my 

hand to the penis. As far back as I can remember I have had what 

a Frenchman has described as 'le fetichisme de la chaussure,' and 

in those early days, before I was 6 years old, I would put on my 

father's boots, taken from a cupboard at hand, and then tying or 

strapping my legs together would produce an erection, and all the 

pleasurable feelings experienced, I suppose, by means of 

masturbation. I always did this secretly, but couldn't tell why. 

I continued this practice on and off all my boyhood and youth. 

When I discovered the first emission I was much surprised. I 

always did this thing without loosening my trousers. As to how 

these feelings arose I am totally unable to say. I can't remember 

being without such feelings, and they seem to me perfectly 

normal. The sight, or even thought, of high boots, or leggings, 

especially if well polished or in patent leather, would set all 

my sexual passions aflame, and does yet. As a boy my great desire 

was to wear these things. A soldier in boots and spurs, a groom 

in tops, or even an errand-boy in patent leather leggings, 

fascinated me, and to this day, despite reason and everything 

else. The sight of such things produced an erection. An emission 

I could always produce by tightly tying my legs together, but 

only when wearing boots, and preferably leggings, which when I 

had pocket money I bought for this purpose. (At the present 

moment I have five pairs in the house and two pairs of high 

boots, quite unjustified by ordinary use.) This habit I lapse 

into yet at times. The smell of leather affects me, but I never 

know how far this may be due to association with boots; the smell 

suggests the image. Restraint by a leather strap is more exciting 

than by cords. Erotic dreams always take the form of restraint on 

the limbs when booted. 

 

"Uniforms and liveries have a great temptation for me, but only 

when of a tight-fitting nature and smart, as soldiers', grooms', 

etc., but not sailors'; most powerfully when the person is in 

boots or leggings and breeches. 

 

"I was a quiet, sensitive boy, taking no part in games or sports. 

Have always been indifferent to them. I made few friends, but 

didn't want them. The craving for friendship came much later, 

after I was 21. I was a day boy at a private school, and never 

had any conversation with any boy on sexual matters, though I was 

dimly aware of much 'nastiness' about the school. I knew nothing 


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