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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

of sodomy. But all these things were repulsive to me, 

notwithstanding my secret practices. I was a 'good boy.' 

 

"Up to the age of 21 I was perfectly satisfied with my own 

society, something of a prig, fond of books and reading, etc. I 

was and ever have been absolutely insensible to the influence of 

the other sex. I am not a woman hater, and take intellectual 

pleasure in the society of certain ladies, but they are nearly 

all much older than myself. I have a strong repulsion from sexual 

relations with women. I should not mind being married for the 

sake of companionship and for the sake of having boys of my own. 

But the sexual act would frighten me. I could not in my present 

frame of mind go to bed with a woman. Yet I feel an immense envy 

of my married friends in that they are able to give out, and find 

satisfaction for, their affection in a way that is quite 

impossible for me. I picture certain boys in the place of the 

wife. 

 

"I am now only happy in the society of men younger than myself, 

age 17 to (say) 23 or 24, youths with smooth faces, or first sign 

of hair on lip, well groomed, slightly effeminate in feature, of 

sympathetic, perhaps weak nature. I feel I want to help them, do 

something for them, devote myself entirely to their welfare. 

 

"With such there is no fixed line between friendship and love. I 

yearn for intimacy with particular friends, but never dare 

express it. I find so many people object to any strong expression 

of feeling that I dare not run the risk of appearing ridiculous 

in the eyes of these desired intimates. 

 

"I have no desire for _paedicatio_, but the idea itself does not 

repulse me or seem unnatural, though personally it repels me a 

little. But I think this to be mere prejudice on my part, which 

might be broken down if the loved person showed a willingness to 

act a passive part. I should never dare to make an advance, 

however. 


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