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PREFACE
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-1.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-2.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.4
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-3.5
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-4.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.1
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.2
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-5.3
EROTIC SYMBOLISM-6
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-1.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.3
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-2.4
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-3.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.1
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.2
THE MECHANISM OF DETUMESCENCE-4.3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-1
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-2
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-3
THE PSYCHIC STATE IN PREGNANCY-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-1.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-2.2
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-3-4
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.1
HISTORIES OF SEXUAL DEVELOPMENT HISTORY-5.2
INDEX OF AUTHORS

 

 

"I am restrained by moral and religious considerations from 

making my real feelings known, and I feel I should sink in my own 

estimation if I gave way, though my natural desire is to do so. 

In the face of opportunities (not I mean of _paedicatio_, but of 

expression of excessive affection, etc.), or what might be such, 

I always fail to speak lest I should forfeit the esteem of the 

other person. I have a feeling of surprise when any one I like 

evinces a liking for me. I feel that those I love are 

immeasurably my superiors, though my reason may tell me it is not 

so. I would grovel at their feet, do anything to win a smile from 

them, or to make them give me their company. 

 

"Ordinary bodily contact with the boy I love gives me most 

exquisite pleasure, and I never lose an opportunity of bringing 

such contact about when it can be done naturally. I feel an 

immense desire to embrace, kiss, squeeze, etc., the person, to 

generally maul him, and say nice things--the kind of things a man 

usually says to a woman. A handshake, the mere presence of the 

person, makes me happy and content. 

 

"I can say with the Albanian: 'If I find myself in the presence 

of the beloved, I rest absorbed in gazing on him. Absent, I think 

of nought but him. If the beloved unexpectedly appears I fall 

into confusion. My heart beats faster. I have eyes and ears only 

for the beloved.' 

 

"I feel that my capacity of affection is finer and more spiritual 

than that which commonly subsists between persons of different 

sexes. And so, while trying to fight my instincts by religion, I 

find my natural feeling to be part of my religion, and its 

highest expression. In this sense I can speak from experience in 

my own case, and more especially in that of my brother, that what 

you have said about philanthropic activity resulting from 

repressed homosexuality is very true indeed. I can say with one 

of your female cases: 'Love is to me a religion. The very nature 

of my affection for my friends precludes the possibility of any 

element entering into it which is not absolutely pure and 

sacred.' I am, however, madly jealous. I want entire possession, 

and I can't bear for a moment that any one I do not care for 

should know the person I love. 

 

"I am never attracted by men older than myself. The youths who 

attract me may be of any class, though preferably, I think, of a 

class a little lower than myself. I am not quite sure of this, 

however, as circumstances may have contributed more than 

deliberate choice to bring certain youths under my notice. Those 

who have exercised the most powerful influence on me have been an 

Oxford undergraduate, a barber's assistant, and a plumber's 

apprentice. Though naturally fond of intellectual society, I do 

not ask for intellect in those I love. It goes for nothing. I 

always prefer their company to that of the most educated persons. 

This preference has alienated me to some extent from more refined 

and educated circles that formerly I was intimate with. 

 

"I have been led entirely out of my old habits by association 

with younger friends, and now do things which before I should 


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